“Help This Love Before You Leave”

Last night I did something I haven’t done in a long time.  I took the time to sit down and just listen to music.  I didn’t do anything else while listening to it, I just sat and listened.  I don’t do that enough anymore.  The lucky thing was that it was a live streaming concert for the band Broken Social Scene out of Toronto.  I’ve heard only one or two tracks from their latest album, but I found them through my Scott Pilgrim buddies online, and then I finally picked up their first album You Forgot It In People a few months back.  I’d listened to it a couple times since then (listening more intently to the track “Anthems For A Seventeen Year-Old Girl” than anything else on the album.  I’d listened to the album all the way through a few times this year, not really paying attention to most of it.  Then my laptop went down.

I normally need music or something to focus on my reading (whether it’s for class or if it’s for enjoyment), so I put the music on when I ran out of podcasts.  This time though, I actually listened.  I’ve probably listened to the album 3 times since Sunday, and it just keeps getting better and better.  In this kinda weather (for Carrie, it’s really crappy snowy and ugly here this week), a melancholy sounding album is just a perfect fit, and this album hit that mark.  I have to change my favorite track now that I’ve actually listened to the album, though.  I’m switching from “Anthem…” to “Almost Crimes.”  There’s such a massive energy to the track that just pushes and pushes and pushes and makes you want to move along with it.

It’s been quite some time since I’ve had a song that’s done that to me.  It used to be just religious music that did that to me, though I’ve obviously moved out of that range at this point.  The last time I remember a song doing that to me was back when I was listening to Foo Fighters (which I haven’t done in a while, sadly), and some of the music just rocked my ass off.  It was so much fun to hear that.  And I’m getting that feeling all over again with Broken Social Scene, even though it’s a completely different style of rock.  Foo was a bit grungier, BSS is very much an indie rock style (although they are a supergroup made up of around 15 members).

I really wish I could feel this more often, because it’s something that’s just incredible.  I mean, I feel connections to the films I watch and to the books I read.  I can feel I can relate, I can feel danger, and I can feel happiness with those.  Music though, music has something special to it.  It can penetrate a person to their core, get in there, fuck with them a bit, come out, and make the person feel something that possibly they didn’t feel before.  I think that’s it’s greatest advantage.

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